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Jasons accountability - may it keep me honest and on track

Heather said: "I hope that you are feeling better today, Jason. Be sure to drink plenty of fluids!"

Heather said: "Very respectable, Jason. By the time summer gets here you're going to look like a totally different person.. :respect:"

Heather said: "It's good to see you back, Jason. Just take life one day at a time and we'll be here for you!"

GreenEyes said: "[B][SIZE="5"][FONT="Verdana"][COLOR="Navy"]Happy Father's Day! :) [/COLOR][/FONT][/SIZE][/B]"

naynay said: "hmm sounds like good food..I can learn from it:)"

naynay said: "You are doing so good...keep this up and you should have no prob reaching your goal:th_dblthumb2:"

naynay said: "glad you are not getting too mad....it will start coming off soon enough...great job so far:th_dblthumb2:"

naynay said: "[SIZE="4"]wow, you are doing such a great job...you should go out and buy a new shirt or somthing and ged rid of a old big bad one:th_dblthumb2: [/SIZE]"

naynay said: "i am so glad your back....i hope all works out for you i hope to lose as good as you have"

naynay said: "I really hope everything works out for u and ur family [FONT="Arial Black"][SIZE="6"][COLOR="Navy"]congratulations on your weight loss[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]"

naynay said: "hey how are you doing??"

naynay said: "i wish you two could have worked the arm grab out and for her not to call for that.... hopefully you guys learn from it....i hope that things will work out for you stay strong...:)"

naynay said: "happy fathers day....it may not be too happy but you love and take care of your son and you should be happy about that...he will always be there (u prob already know this) this may be none of my business but i know from experience...dont talk bad about each other to your son..i hope your wife will not do it as well..it can really hurt and damage the child emotionaly...its so easy to do with out realizing it....my ex step dad did that about my mom and it made me stay away from him..it hurt their kids more try to have a nice day:)"

naynay said: "[QUOTE=lakelady]...or maybe, Jason, she just felt bad that you were alone on father;s day. You said you were close to them. They're in a horrible position as well. Could you maybe get your wife with you to family mediation? You know, bring up points of contention ane at a time and resolve them, with a mediator there to keep it from turning into a shouting match? Keep trying stuff til something works. [COLOR="Blue"][B][I][FONT="Comic Sans MS"][SIZE="6"]BIG HUGS[/SIZE][/FONT][/I][/B][/COLOR][/QUOTE] thats a good idea...you will always be around them since they are your sons granparents"

naynay said: "maybe a good workout will help you feel better:)"

Kat_the_Amazon said: "Gosh, 3 antibiotics?! Geeze! Hope you feel better soon!"

Kat_the_Amazon said: "by the way, your son is too cute!! Congrats on the good weight loss and being in control of it!"

klynnfosh said: "Jason where are you? I hope that you did not turn to the junk, it is hard to quit once you start putting it back in your diet you want it more. There are healthy treats you should be allowing yourself to have, you know the diet word is a bad four letter word. You should consider this a lifestyle change of eating and there is no food that is totally forbidden, it would have to be considered a moderate portion on an occasional basis even if it was not a healthy choice, you can have cookies, cake, chips or whatever if you plan them into your daily food allowance, granted you may not get to eat a large portion but that is what gets us in the shape we are when we have to lose weight in the first place. You may need to just try eating a few more calories and trick your body into getting out of the starvation mode where it hangs on to every morsel you give it. 4 pounds a week is really a little to fast for it to be coming off anyway 1-2 pounds a week after the first week is more healthy for your body and slow and steady wins the race is true, don't give up."

missred said: "First, I have to ask, what is so good about the fish oil? Sounds yucky! Thanks for your comments on my journal. I do love working out although, like everyone, I sometimes don't want to do it. Afterwards, I always feel great though. Once you find something that you really love, it becomes so easy. The walking is great for me because I can just think or listen to music and not think at all--whichever way I want to go! :) I like weights and strength training stuff because I love that tight feel I have afterwards. I can feel a difference almost immediately just in the way the muscle is slightly sore and worked. That is motivational. As you get into more physical activity, begin to really explore a variety of things. I wish I could rock climb! That sounds like fun and challenging workout. One day, maybe... You never know what you might really like. Keep your options open. I know men who do yoga and pilates too. SO don't feel limited to just running/walking and weights either."

Robyn said: "Oh my gosh! Jason, I haven't checked in on your journal for a few days and you are just MELTING away! WAY TO GO! :th_dblthumb2:"

Robyn said: "Jason, I just love reading your posts...it's so inspiring to read them all the way through! :)"

Robyn said: "Jason where are you? What happened with that last 15 pounds?? :jump:"

Matt_9 said: "Jeeze! Hope you feel better Jason, what you have sounds really s----y."

Matt_9 said: "1390 is sort of low for a calorie count for someone your size. That's what people are going to tell you! (they're right) but I'm a fan of shocking your body onto a lower calorie intake so I'm not going to recommend you change...but it's not the 'healthiest' thing to do. Oh, and are you counting the calories in the iced tea you drink? Depending on if it's diet iced tea or what brand it is it might have anywhere from 0 to 300 calories per serving. Some brands are really loaded with calories."

Matt_9 said: "I don't know if you like it but most major grocery store chains that sell their own brands of food usually make "light oatmeal" bread and also "light whole wheat" bread that is only 40 calories per slice. You can have 2 instead of 1 and shave off 20 calories from the 100c slice."

Matt_9 said: "I like the "reward" system idea, I generally used it weekly also but I didn't go too crazy. I didn't give myself the entire day as a "free" day but I would eat one or two things that were high calorie/high fat and not care about it. Personally I believe it can help keep your weight loss up (as long as you don't go OVERBOARD with the sweets or whatever it is you are eating). When you go from a high calorie lifestyle to a very low calorie/low fat lifestyle your body is going to do what it always does...adjust. After many months it's going to say "OK, this is what I'm living on now...this many calories. How can I make this last..." and then your weight loss can start to slow or stop. I'm not a doctor or anything but I never hit a plateau yet and I've heard a lot of people say that "cheating" once every few weeks can help stall plateaus because your body gets it's high fat and high calories again and it breaks the cycle of a low calorie diet. I have no idea if it's true or not, but it's an interesting theory. Another tip I heard (I believe on this forum) once was: stay on track! It's natural that you're going to cheat. Everyone will have a few days where they binge and go off track on their diet...it's just natural. No one is perfect, everyone makes mistakes, circumstances arise, etc. So don't hate yourself and beat yourself up over it and say "screw it!", just pretend that day never happened and continue on your diet."

Matt_9 said: "Try the Low Sodium V8 vegetable juice. The regular one is ridiculously high in sodium, like...really insane."

Matt_9 said: "Well some of the Lean Cuisine meals are high in sodium too and I usually don't care all that much, because they are usually all I eat for my dinners. But when I get more sodium in 8 ounces of a drink than I just had in an entire meal...ouch! To me the low sodium V8 tastes the same. Maybe it's because I've got accustomed to it."

Matt_9 said: "Way to go Jason! Wooooooooooooooooooooooo. It's so exciting to see people start something and see it from start to finish. I can't wait until I'm "finished" and at the weight I want. I wanna know what that feels like! Looks like you'll be there in no time. :th_coolio:"

Matt_9 said: "Exercise threw my numbers off at first too. Maybe my body was holding onto extra water. Or maybe it was too much stress and it was trying to hold onto the calories. I don't pretend to know the science behind it, but my weight loss slowed and for an entire week I lost NO weight, but was exercising like crazy. I don't think you've hit a plateau though, just stick with what you've been doing and don't get discouraged by slight weight gain or a slight slow down in weight loss. 4 pounds a week is a LOT of weight to lose each week...your body is probably just trying to slow down."

Matt_9 said: "Congrat-ul-freakin'-ations Jason! Amazing isn't it?! You are doing so great (so I'll echo what countless others have said) and keep it up! AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE."

Matt_9 said: "lmaoooooooo"

Matt_9 said: "Thanks for the update Jason. I'll echo what others have said, I'm very happy to hear you're still doing great. The hard work has already paid off in so many ways as I'm sure you know. Anyone who has been there knows. :th_dblthumb2:"

angel_rising said: "Glad to hear that you are starting to get some relief.:th_dblthumb2: and thanx for your last post in my journal.:wave:"

angel_rising said: "Well I am glad that your blood pressure is not 160 over 90:signs053: I hope that you start feeling better. Just one thing to think about though. Are you getting enough calories. Your meals for yesterday seem a little low. You dont want your body to go into starvation mode. That would kill all the hard work you are putting in"

angel_rising said: "Way to go. I know that it must make you feel good to keep seeing the numbers go down. Oh and I hope you feel better soon, It must stink to be sick for that long"

angel_rising said: "2115 is not a bad for a guy your size. You could still lose weight if you stuck to that count daily. Uggh, you cant seem to catch a brake with that brochittis can you??? Well I hope today is a good day for you"

angel_rising said: "Glad to hear that you are feeling better today.:th_dblthumb2: One of the things that you might want to try is to give yourself a treat day. A day where you can give yourself something a little nuaghty. Just dont over do it. Today is mine. I had 4 cookies, and I do not feel quilty about it at all. It makes it soo much easier to stick to a strick eatting plan when you know that you have a treat to look forward too Congrats you are making great progress keep it up and feel better"

angel_rising said: "How are you feeling now? Did the congestion finally clear up or did you have to call your doctor again? Well atleast your eating looks good."

angel_rising said: "Yes definatly [B][U]call your doctor[/U][/B]!!! Using a rescue inhaler more than 4 times a day which it sounds like you had to is considered a medical emergency. Your doctor will either tell you to come in or to go to the ER if he cant get you in. Do not hesitate. Good Luck"

angel_rising said: "[COLOR="Red"][/COLOR][B][SIZE="5"]WOW[/SIZE][/B] Jason it seems like everytime I blink your ticker has moved again. Keep up the good work. You are really an inspiration to us all"

angel_rising said: "I would not worry about the three pounds. You are more than likely right that it is muscle gain. One day of junkfood does not add three pounds. Angel"

angel_rising said: "Sorry about the junk food comment I read your post wrong apperntly. I dont want to get you down, but do you think that your weight loss could be slowing down now that your body is getting used to it? Maybe you put on 5lbs of muscle mass and lost 2lbs of fat? It could also be water retention. I am sure with how well you have been sticking to your eating plan that it is not fat gain. With your commintment I am sure that you will see the numbers heading in the right direction soon enough. Angel"

angel_rising said: ":th_dblthumb2: Glad to see that the numbers are heading in the right direction again.:th_dblthumb2: Keep it up and it wont be long until the outside matches how you feel on the inside. Angel"

angel_rising said: "[FONT=Comic Sans MS][SIZE=6][COLOR=blue]Congratulations:party: [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]"

angel_rising said: "WoW. It really sounds like things are really going your way. Congratulations. Angel"

angel_rising said: "249[SIZE=7] [B]WOW[/B][/SIZE] Everytime I read your updates I am blown away by the progress that you have made. You are truely an inspiration to all of us."

angel_rising said: "[FONT=Comic Sans MS][COLOR=royalblue]Jason, I know what you are going through stinks. Being apart from your kid even for a short time is one of the most heart reanching things, and being a part from some one that you have spent so much time with over the years (your wife) even if things are not good between you is hard. I know when DCF first took Josh there were days of binging fallowed by days of hardley eating. Now that I have josh back I am without my hubby and I find myself going to the fridge looking for snacks. For me junk food fills a void, but I relize that it is not worth it. In the end the void will still be there and I will feel guilty about the junk food. One of the things that I find helps me avoid the junk is to keep myself occupied with meaningfull things. I write letters to my hubby. I am wrighting out my own ceremony for renewing our vows, and I am even writting a short story that I want to get published. The short story is going to be dedicated to my hubby and I am planning on giving it to him on fathers day. I do all these things when I find myself heading to the fridge or pantry for junk.[/COLOR][/FONT] [FONT=Comic Sans MS][COLOR=#4169e1][/COLOR][/FONT] [FONT=Comic Sans MS][COLOR=#4169e1]Stay strong Jason. You [B][U]will[/U][/B] get through this.[/COLOR][/FONT]"

angel_rising said: "[quote=JasonMinus100Pounds]Jason minus TWENTY TWO POUNDS...and counting![/quote]:signs053: [FONT=Comic Sans MS][COLOR=royalblue]WoW, Are you really already that close to your goal? You are a true inspiration to all of us here. [/COLOR][/FONT] [FONT=Comic Sans MS][COLOR=#4169e1]I am glad that you are not letting the B*** SH** of your wifes drama stop you from moving forward.[/COLOR][/FONT]"

angel_rising said: "[FONT=Comic Sans MS][COLOR=royalblue]Hang in there Legend. Fathers day is all about celebrating the special role you play as a father. No matter what happens there is nothing that can take that away from you. Even if there are no gifts and no cakes you still have the wonderfull role of being a father. Go out and treat yourself. Do something that you want to do, you deserve it.[/COLOR][/FONT] [FONT=Comic Sans MS][COLOR=#4169e1][/COLOR][/FONT] [FONT=Comic Sans MS][SIZE=6][COLOR=#4169e1] [U]HAPPY FATHERS DAY[/U][/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]"

Diamond said: "I'm glad sickness can't spread through computers because I don't want what you have. :dazed052: Feel better soon!"

Diamond said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]Quick update I am about 261 right now so the 250s are getting very close. I must admit I am really starting to see the changes in myself now that I just didnt see much of down to the 270s. Was sitting at a meeting in some shorts the other day and looked down at someone elses leg! Had to be someone elses because mine is twice that size!..jeez I guess I am looking alot thinner, I said. I am still being a good boy and sticking to the diet. I have been so busy I am not eating as frequently as I should though. It hasnt seemed to slow down my loss yet but I need to eat more often none the less. Still havent got any pictures but I might take the kid to the park tomarrow. If so Ill try and get a pic or two. I feel fantastic and am getting better all the time! JasonMinus46pounds (and counting..)[/QUOTE] It's great to hear that you're noticing changes in the way that your body looks. That is one of the best things! Keep up the good work.. the 250's are right there waiting for you.:th_dblthumb2:"

Diamond said: "I can hardly wait to see the pics! It sounds like you had a very nice together with your family. That's the stuff life is made of!:th_dblthumb2:"

smarchee said: "keep up the good work Jason, you are making tremendous progress :th_dblthumb2:"

help6363 said: "Jason You are doing really well! :th_dblthumb2: Keep up the great work! What's your reward when you hit goal weight? Maybe a second honeymoon with your wife, what do you think? Oh... cannot help it: you are a legend!!"

help6363 said: "Hey Jason Firstly, I am so sorry about the seperation. Relationships are hard but sometimes it is harder to be apart (aren't humans complex?). Being away from your son .... I am so sorry! Jason, Legend, don't give up on yourself now, you have worked so hard. We all know comfort eating isn't the answer. This is just my advice (if it offends or hurts know I never had that intention). Now is the time to take small positive steps. Write down everything in the world you want, then write down how you will achieve it. As for your wife, I really don't think she is a bad person I just think she is in some sort of emotional pain and doesn't know how to deal with it. Maybe she is afraid she will lose you forever. I am unsure. I may be wrong but people often react like that when they are in pain (emotionally). I had a situation like this and I hated it! Here's what I did (you may NOT like the idea) I was really, really nice to the guy, I praised him, gave him a hug and everytime he criticized me I said, 'thanks I'll take that on board'. See what I think I did was I stopped the power game between me and this guy and he responded by being really positive towards me. He did not know what made him happy, so I made him write a list of things that knew made him happy and then I told him we would build on it. We tried new things - walked in the bush and took pics of wildlife, attended free seminars, tried scrapbooking and so forth. I helped him gain employment. I think the key to managing unhappy people is to inform them that they are great and make them exprience more than just unhappiness. I don't know if this will help but it worked wonders for me. Soon after he was happy and employed I started putting in small boundries. For example, if he spoke to me in a rude manner I would say, 'that's not like you, you are normally so beautiful but that comment hurt. Please try not to do that'. After time he learnt how to treat me. I know it sounds like silly advice but it may be worth a try. Sorry this is getting long!!! [SIZE="5"][COLOR="Green"]I know you want the best for your son. You are a good dad. To give your son the best just be you! [/COLOR][/SIZE] There is a happy ending! Stay with the diet and exercise, smile and come visit us more often, k? Stay strong..... sending happy thoughts your way!!!"

help6363 said: "[SIZE="7"][COLOR="RoyalBlue"]WELL DONE!!! Keep up the great work.... Legend! [/COLOR][/SIZE]:th_dblthumb2:"

help6363 said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]Thanks again for the kind support...and sound advice. I am not going to comment on the situation right now other than to thank you all for being my 'rock' when I am learning that I cannot be this time. This is very sensitive to me obviously and today has been worse than most so I am going to move onto another topic. I am fairly certain that atleast some of this weight loss is due to me being dehydrated and not taking care of myself as I should, but I want to post it anyways because it made me smile (and i really need that right now). I am now at 235 pounds...and only 15 pounds from my goal. I have lost 82 pounds? I just cant believe it. I actually feel heavier now because I have been so wrapped up in lifes tests that I have not been nearly as active. I guess my muscles feel soft and saggy and my belly feels..bigger. All I know is I am still on track and [U]I am going to do this[/U], regardless of how hard things are for me. I feel proud because this was something that I would never do for myself but I somehow found the strength in God and in my Sons face...I'm going to make it. When things get better for me and my family, and they WILL...I'm going to be ready. Damnit I'm going to live up to the nickname you all gave me and finish strong. I love you Jonathan..daddy is doing it! JasonMinus[I]15pounds[/I]??....[/QUOTE] Legend Of course you will do it! There was never a doubt in my mind! Hang in there, I know there is a happy ending for you and you will achieve great things (well you already HAVE achieved great things!) I mean you will achieve MORE great things!!! Take care of yourself....... you are worth it and your son needs you:th_dblthumb2:"

lakelady said: "You're on your way Jason. I'm leaving on vacation today. At the rate you're going, when I get back your ticker will be five pounds lower!!! (mine will probably that much higher!!) I'm SO proud of you! btw, I think it's been scientifically proven that a rousing game of 'I'm gonna get you' is as effective as free weights as far as working out goes! (grin) GOOD LUCK!"

lakelady said: "Wow, Jason, I go on vacation and the first thing you do is get deathly ill! That was NOT part of the plan! :dazed002: You're doing VERY well sticking to your diet. If there's a good thing about being sick, it's that it DESTROYS your appetite. I'm bedridden right now as well, bacteremia in my bloodstream, more popularly known as blood poisoning, from a coral scrape I got on vacation. (don't worry, it was our last day and I didn't feel bad 'til we were on the plane home). I'm so proud of how you've stuck with this the whole time I was gone, you're REALLY gonna DO this. Well, my five minutes of lucidity are up, talk to you later. KEEP IT UP! (and don't forget the humidifier!)"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=fallen_angel]One of the things that you might want to try is to give yourself a treat day. A day where you can give yourself something a little nuaghty. Just dont over do it. Today is mine. I had 4 cookies, and I do not feel quilty about it at all. It makes it soo much easier to stick to a strick eatting plan when you know that you have a treat to look forward too[/QUOTE] That's a good suggestion angel. That's what I did after my second pregnancy, stick STRICTLY to my diet for 6 days, with Sunday's diet free days. when I found myself wavering during the week I'd just tell myself sunday was not far away. Worked every time, and I was back to pre-pregnancy weight in no time!"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]Im not ure if the reward system with a naughty food is a good idea for me. It makes perfect sense to have something to look forward too. However, I am a habitual person. When I get my hands on something that i REALLY like (such as anything sweet compared to this diet) I am going to get cravings for it..bad. I think it might be easier for me personally to just avoid the really bad stuff like simple sugars. I'll admit Ive been thinking about that frozen yogurt since I had it the other night :laugh: I suppose having weakness' is only human. Maybe learning to avoid the bad ones is the trick, eh?[/QUOTE] Yeah, the reward system isn't right for everyone, and it's not even right for ME a lot of the time. One of the most important things I've learned about dieting over the years is that what worked before, won't necessarily work again. So much of successful dieting depends on 'where your head's at' at any given time. If a certain method isn't working, or stops working for you, SWITCH!"

lakelady said: "You're just doing great with your food choices and STICKING TO THEM! I'm very proud of you. Hope you feel better, it just SUCKS being sick!"

lakelady said: "You're really making GREAT food choices! Plus, cheerios lowers your cholesterol, it's not just an ad campaign! Any whole-oat ceral does!"

lakelady said: "hey that's a good low fat breakfast! did you use no-calorie cooking spray tocook the omelet? I use it for ALL my frying/sauteing. You're doing great! keep it up. Are you feeling better. Seems we all got sick here at once!"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds] As for my sickeness, its been really strange. The last two days I have felt like my breath has been shorter and I have been really tired. My fever has not come back, which I am thankful for. However this has been over THREE WEEKS now. I am still congested and coughing with limited lung capacity noticeable after the slightest exercise. I might have to call the doctor a fourth time if it doesnt clear up soon.Im ready to be healthy again! Jason[/QUOTE] Any kind of bronchitis takes a long time to get over, I know. Three weeks isn't unusual. Try this. Go to the pharmacy and get one of those OTC syrups containing an expectorant, for chest congestion and a productive cough. (ask the pharmacist.) Take that with LOTS of water and when your chest starts to loosen up a bit, MAKE yourself cough, really deep coughs like they make you do after surgery. Expel as much air from your lungs as you can and cough, then breathe really deep and cough. It REALLY helps get that stubborn infection that's clogging up your lungs out. (which, of course is why they make you do it after surgery to prevent pneumonia, lots of fun coughing with staples up your middle!) You'll recover a lot faster. Remember lots of water all the time to keep that gunk as liquid as possible so you CAN cough it out. you're doing GREAT with your food. hope you feel better soon."

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]Having 'asthma' scares me tremendously. I have never had breathing problems until now. The feeling of suffocating is terrifying and Im thankful to be breathing better. I pray it lasts this time.[/QUOTE] Oh Jason, I can speak to this. I've been an asthmatic since childhood and I know the suffocating feeling you're talking about. Fortunately my mom was a nurse and treated the whole thing very casually, so I learned early not to be frightened. It's hardly impacted my life at all. I have a rescue inhalor, but the amazing thing is that since the people on this board got me drinking eight big glasses of water a day, I've hardly used it at all. (not even [I]exactly[/I] sure where it is!) There's GOTTA be a connection 'cause that's the only thing I did differently. Being scared really exacerbates the problem. When I was little and had an attack, my mom would have me sit down and blow up balloons. it made me regulate my breathing, take deep breaths and exercise my lungs. It won't be long before your doc has your asthma under control. LOTS of new meds they didn't have for me! It'll help a lot when your bronchitis has cleared up. HAVE ALLERGY TESTS! This could be triggered by an allergy you didn't know you had. For example, since you've been dieting have you added any foods you didn't used to eat? If so, eliminate them one at a time for a few days and see if you notice a difference. GOOD LUCK!!!"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]I think the fact that I am responding to steroids (asthma treatment) means that I am, clinically, asthmatic. I still hold onto hope that this will not be reaccuring. But, as of right now, I am just happy to have my breath back enough to be comfortable and not on edge. Jason[/QUOTE] I'm not a doctor obviously, but I HAVE had asthma my whole life, so I read about it now and then to keep myself informed. Adult onset chronic asthma (the permanent kind) is really very rare. There are a host of temporary pulmonary conditions that mirror it and respond to the same treatments. My guess is that this is a temporary thing for you, and I'm betting your doc will come to the same conclusion, but, IF NOT, don't worry yourself to death over it. I was a medal winning cross-country runner in high school and the 440 medalist at the Drake Relays two years running. It was knee surgery that ended my running, [I]not[/I] asthma. I ride, bikes AND horses, I scuba dive, water and snow ski, snowboard (well, kinda, sorta.....), skate,....and pretty much do whatever I like activity wise. I'm 52 years old and they didn't even HAVE steroid treatments, or singulair, or any of that stuff when I was growing up. I don't want you to think for a moment that this will somehow limit your life, or your lifestyle. It ABSOLUTELY WILL NOT! Glad you're feeling so much better. Bet you've turned the corner now. Best wishes. :th_dblthumb2:"

lakelady said: "I know this might seem kinda dumb to you, but I think that you should save this journal for your son to read when he's older. (like when he's 14 and says you never cared about him) Seriously, I think it's a good idea. of course this is coming from a woman who, instead of having a baby BOOK for each of her children, has a baby LIBRARY (one shelf each) for them!"

lakelady said: "Jason, You're doing SSOOO well! How's the breathing problems? Now, tell me about these 'spicy chicken brats' I've never seen them and they SOUND great! Keep it up, you've REALLY got the momentum going!"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds] The chicken brats are simply low fat white chicken meat brats with red and green peppers in them and some spices. They are great for only 160c each I must say.[/QUOTE] Gee, THANKS Jason, but where do you GET them? :rolleyes:"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]Oh, in California! :lol: Does that help? okok... I think we found them at Albertsons. They are called Catella's Roasted Chicken Sausage "with sweet bell peppers and onions". I wouldnt describe them as a 10, but they are pretty decent for 160cals each[/QUOTE] THANK you funny boy! They sound great. We don't have albertson's in Lincoln but they do in Omaha and I have 3 kids living in or near there. I'll have them pick up some. I can't wait to try them."

lakelady said: "Jason, not yet on the junk food, 'kay. Before you got here I was stuck on a plateau, at something like 8 pounds from my goal weight for 9 DAYS! I was about to cut off a limb I was so frustrated! I'm certain it's muscle. remember, muscle is over 4 times denser than fat! Remember my two friends, gym rat and couch potato, both 155 lbs @ 5'3''. 1 in size six jeans and one in 16's! How're your clothes fitting? Don't cave to the junk food yet, it's sorta hard to go back when you do. Save it for an emergency, this aint it!"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]Thanks for the support folks. I have just been very busy with building a project car, working on the house and..dealing with my crappy home life.[/QUOTE] Congratulations on not getting into the junk food. project car,, eh. You sound like my eldest. he's got a few hobby mustangs. He makes them go fast. He just put a NOS bottle in one and took his mother for a ride. He [I]scared[/I] his mother. This made him happy! please tell me you make your cars pretty and not turn them into rockets!"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds] If it doesnt take you breath away (literally) when launching from a stop, its not fast :D[/QUOTE] Yep, that's what I was afraid of. I'm used to it. My dad, uncles, and brothers were all the same way. Dane says,"ya gotta FEEL the g's ma!""

lakelady said: "I just re-read this whole thread. I can't tell you how impressed I am. You haven't lost focus a single time! When are we gonna see some pics? Do we have to wait til you reach goal? I can't complain if we do, I didn't post any pics til I was only 3 pounds from goal! (unless you count the avatar pic and that's from a nice, flattering, distance!) We're mostly women here, we wanna see pics of your son too! -anyway- you're doing great!, keep it up and you'll be in speedos by this summer!"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds] As far as posting pics of myself, I didnt have any intention of waiting til I hit my goal. I dont know if i even have any pics of me over 300 pounds. Wasnt exactly jumping in front of cameras, heh.[/QUOTE] Oh, I CAN RELATE! There are no 'before' pics of me on this board because THEY DON'T EXIST! [QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds] I will tell you this though. If at some point pigs fly and hell freezes over..and i end up in a speedo..you won't be seeing pics of that! No banana hammocks for this guy..Jason[/QUOTE] ...and we all thank you for that Jason:roll:"

lakelady said: "Jason, [COLOR="Magenta"][SIZE="4"]you're halfway there!!!![/SIZE][/COLOR] You are doing SOOO well! Your family must be so proud of you! be Careful, if you get skinnier than your wife she might start feeding you in your sleep!:roll: p.s. I just re-read your first post, you're gonna make goal sometime this summer! WAY before Jan 1st 2008! [I][B][COLOR="Blue"]WAY TO GO!!![/COLOR][/B][/I]"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]Thanks gang! I wont stop til I hit my goal...you'll see! Jason[/QUOTE] You've given us no reason to believe anything else, Jason! You're an inspiration. Talk about 'sticking with it', you've got it down! My teen says you 'pownzor' whatever THAT means, but I think it's good."

lakelady said: "It's good to be busy, but coincidentally, I JUST read an article in teen's docs office that said the best way to lose weight and keep your metabolism heated up is to incorporate your daily calories into several small meals or snacks a day, so you were doing it exactly right! Congratulations on recognizing your slip BEFORE it slowed down your loss! You're getting to the point where it's going to slow down anyway :angry: because you don't have as much body to support, and that'll be frustrating enough! (oh TRUST me on that!)"

lakelady said: "You go Dad! You've lost 60 pounds!!!! That's more than Jonathen weighs. Thats weight you're not carrying around all day!! This IS what you did it for, now go climb that jungle gym. superdad!!!!"

lakelady said: "GREAT to hear from you Jason! You're doing great!...and not just 'great considering' but all around, resounding GREAT. We all hit those awful plateaus. Looks like you powered through yours just great! At least when you break a diet plan it's in small ways, (a couple teaspoons of peanut butter, etc.) When I'd reach for the peanut butter, I didn't stop 'til the jar was gone!!!! Hopefully, I'm over that forever now."

lakelady said: "Jason,:sad010: God! I can't tell you how sorry I am that you're going through this! It's time to sit down and have a talk with yourself. You haven't undone all the progress you.ve made, and anyone can understand a little slip during this stressful time, but Jason, think about it. If you fall off the wagon completely and start gaining, you'll still be in the position you're in now, but even more depressed because you've gained weight. Maybe now is a good time just to go on maintenance for a while. It may keep you from spiraling down on the poor eating habits. Take a break, get a grip, then when you're feeling stronger resume the losing. if you're craving sweets, get thee to the supermarket and buy some q-smart chocolate chip bars, some sugar free, fat free pudding, some splenda for your oatmeal, some special k vanilla almond cereal....you get the idea. Take a trash bag and clear the junk and the 'trigger' foods out of your house! Get some chicken breasts and cook them all at once and make them into a big bowl of chicken salad with fat free mayo, some celery and a chopped apple. Keep it in your fridge for snack attacks.Put it in a wrap, put it on rye krisp crackers..... Can you get your wife into counseling? Offer to do couples counseling with her if that's what it takes to get her to go. You don't come as far as you have without being a person with considerable personal strength, Jason. You'll get through this. I wish there was more I could do to help. One of my brothers went through something similar to this years ago and it was the hardest thing to watch. He got through it though and is very happy now."

lakelady said: "Jason, I don't know if you're up for any humor right now, but just in case you are, I came across this..."

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds] Jason (formerly known as 'legend')[/QUOTE] NAH lgend, you're still 'the legend'. In spite of what you're going through, you caught yourself after only ten pounds! I had one little injury and packed on 30 before I checked myself. I wondered when you were going to get tired of cheerios! I ate myself SICK of chicken during my big weight loss and didn't touch it again for more than two years!! There are LOTS of options as good for you as cheerios. On a personal note, I couldn't be sorrier about Jonathan. I'm certain he's very bewildered. If your ex is truly putting him at risk in any way, maybe you can get at least split custody. I don't want to get your hopes up though. We have an admitted alcoholic woman here (you'll note I didn't say 'recovering') who's ex has been trying to get his kids for years with no sucess. Of course, she's an heiress, so I'm sure that doesn't hurt. Just stay as close to him as you can and fight for generous visitation. GOOD LUCK! You're in my prayers."

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]Thank you lakelady. You are always so sweet and supportive....[/QUOTE] OH Legend, I've been called many, many things in my life, some of them very good, but I don't think ANYONE has ever called me 'sweet'! THANKS, I'm saving your letter as proof! I'm so happy you're back. This board just wasn't the same without your wit. I would have been shocked if your separation DIDN'T stun you. Your whole world has been inverted! Did you know that the first two years after the first child are when marriages are most at risk? The largest percentage of divorces occur at that time. The article I read listed hormonally induced personality shifts in the wife, stress of caring for a newborn, restricted freedom and finances for the couple, and a feeling of being disenfranchised from his wife for the husband, for leading to conflicts and arguments that before the baby, the couple would have resolved between themselves. I wish I could remember what else it said. I know you are not alone though. It's definitely time for you to re-connect with the world. You mention your wife and son leaving. Have they moved far? if you DO divorce, you can ask, and probably be granted, a court order that your ex not move your son more than 50 miles away from you, especially if it's your wife that files. You need to do exactly what you've done here with your weight loss journal. You need to keep a personal journal starting with what your goals in this situation are, how you'd like things to be resolved, and your plans for making that happen and then tweak it as you go. Journaling isn't just for weight loss anymore!:) Keep us posted. Oh and....are you sure you were sober when you read that 254 on the scale? :roll: It's GOTTA feel good that you didn't gain 10 pounds after all!"

lakelady said: "Watch out folks, [B][I][FONT="Times New Roman"][SIZE="4"][COLOR="Blue"]THE LEGEND IS BACK![/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT][/I][/B] Now we all have to stay on our toes again so he doesn't make us all look too ridiculous! Congrats on ditching those ten, Legend. Sure didn't take you long!!!"

lakelady said: "AWW Jason. I'm so sorry. I can see it now, now that everything is calm, Jonathan isn't scared to death, she's not screaming, and you're not desperately looking for a way to make it stop...NOW I bet you can think of 52 better things you could have done, huh? Don't worry, Legend, we all know how devoted to family you are. There's really nothing I can say except that I REALLY, REALLY wish you didn't have to go through this. Could her parents maybe talk to her??"

lakelady said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]I now have to assume that my loving wife has found this forum and reading this based on the fact that I just got a call from her mother after posting I hadnt heard from them...so I want to say HI to my wife and most likely her mother who I assume are reading this. Welcome to my journal and my support group. It is just me being open and honest as [U]I always have been[/U] Oh yea..happy fathers day[/QUOTE] ...or maybe, Jason, she just felt bad that you were alone on father;s day. You said you were close to them. They're in a horrible position as well. Could you maybe get your wife with you to family mediation? You know, bring up points of contention one at a time and resolve them, with a mediator there to keep it from turning into a shouting match? Keep trying stuff til something works. [COLOR="Blue"][B][I][FONT="Comic Sans MS"][SIZE="6"]BIG HUGS[/SIZE][/FONT][/I][/B][/COLOR]"

DrCOOL959 said: "Way to go Jason! Considering you slacked for a little bit you didn't do to bad at all. Now on towards the 230's! =)"

**Shorti** said: "Don't forget about the steadfast favorites: Hide and Go Seek Catch Me if you Can Where's the Baby? and my personal favorite... Streaking Down the Hall Naked After Bathtime ;)"

**Shorti** said: "HINT: Please dont forget to clean out (with bleach or similar bactierial killer) your humidifier before you use it. Bacteria thrive in humidifiers because of the moist and warm enviornment. It is VERY important to clean it out often. My co-worker once got a bad bacterial infection from her humidifier. What started out as a simple cold elevated to a hospital stay because of it. Clean often!"

**Shorti** said: ":clap: Yay stairs! I live in a third floor walk-up...and some days it just SUCKS! Especially after grocery shopping, climbing two flights with 50lbs of groceries... EEEk! congrats on your progress with your breathing, yay!"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thanks you two. Yea it's been a real crappy 11 days now. I am glad to say that I am finally getting some relief tho. After 3 doctors visits and over $300 in multiple medication, humidifier and co-pays... This is one of the nastiest sicknesses I have ever had!"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thursday 1-11-2007 I am going back to the doctor today. I am miserable with a hacking cough and fever. I havent slept through the night in days now. Ive been sick for something like 10 days. I need help. *update* So I have a bad upper respiratory infection AND acute bronchitis. Now I am on inhalers and THREE antibiotics. Plus I got a nice needle in the ass. :angry: Breakfast - Cheerios w/skim milk (300c) - antibiotic, multivitamin, fishoil SNACK - 1/2 cup trail mix (250c?) -stick to the snacks and small portions! Lunch - Lean Cuisine (280c), iced tea w/splenda SNACK - 1/4 cup trail mix (125c?) Dinner - 6" Chicken breast + veggie sub (515...of the best calories around MMM) [B]1470c total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "This is the journal of Jason. Unhealthy Husband and Father. [I][B]This is for my Son, Jonathan. He deserves to have his Fathers love and guidance..like I never did. I know how hard it is to learn to be a man on your own. I don't want that for my Son. Lord, please give me the strength to turn my life around once and for all so I can live a healthy, happy life and be there when my Son needs me.[/I][/B] When i get frustrated and want to be naughty I will read this paragraph. I am making myself a promise and posting it for all to see. I am determined to loose 100 pounds and get into shape no matter how long it takes me. The goal, however unrealistic it may be, is to drop the full 100 pounds by the next New Year (2008). [U]Start time[/U] - December 5th, 2006. [U]Diet strategy[/U] - "YOU: on a diet!" (natural foods, low sugar, lean meats, multiple small portioned meals) [U]Exercise plan[/U] - 30 minutes walking or mild cardio daily. Free weights every other day. Strive to be progressive with both and push it as I gain stamina. [U]Supplements [/U]- One-A-Day Mens with breakfast. Will look into more beneficial possibilities. [B][U]Beginning stats[/U][/B] 6' 3" tall large build Starting weight - 317 pounds Starting waist - 51" [B][U]After one month[/U][/B] Current weight - 303 pounds Current waist - 48" And away we go... *reminder* [QUOTE=Matt_9]You can go to [URL="http://www.active.com/calculators/calories_calc.cfm#"]this site[/URL] to calculate how many calories per day your body needs to maintain it's current weight. If you cut that number down by 500 per day, you'll lose 1 pound per week. If you drop it by 1,000 per day, you'll lose 2 per week etc. If you add any kind of exercise or activity into that you'll lose even more etc. [/QUOTE]Thanks Matt 3444 calories to maintain 300Lbs. At my average of 1500 calories per day, not factoring in calorie burn from exercise, I should be loosing close to [b]4 pounds per week[/b] and [b]16 pounds per month[/b]. ------------------------------------------------------ [U]Calorie count of common items and meals[/U] 1.5 cup skim milk for cereal....................135 calories 1.5 cups of cheerios..............................165 calories (300 total for cheerios) 8oz glass of V8 juice..............................50 calories Whole wheat english muffin....................160 calories whole wheat bread...............................100 calories per slice Egg White............................................17 calories Whole egg, cooked................................23 calories (each) Hard-Boiled Egg....................................76 calories Turkey Sausage....................................70 calories per link Lean Cuisine SPA style meals.................210-300 calories (most are 250) Turkey Meatballs..................................43 calories each low fat grated cheese...........................80 calories per handful veggies (plain).....................................50 or less per serving Vinegrete salad dressing........................90 calories per serving Promise margerine substitute..................45 calories per teaspoon Peanuts (unsalted)..............................180 calories per oz. (serving) Raisin.................................................42 calories per mini-box"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thursday, 1-4-07 Breakfast - cheerios in skim milk Lunch - Turkey chilly, iced tea w/splenda snack - 10 bites of fresh cantalope Dinner - Subway turkey 6" with tons of veggies and no spread, iced tea w/no sugar (had to eat out tonight) Exercise - 20 minutes of walking while pushing my Son along in his super-luxo stroller. 32 Lbs of Jonathan + super-luxo stroller were heavier uphill than i thought. Also played "I'm gonna get you!" for 15 minutes til my arms hurt :)"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thank you for your support :) I also have extensive data on the physical effects of "Flying baby!", "Here comes the Tickle Monster!" and "the never ending summersaults" if anyones keeping track. :laugh:"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Indeed those are all fun as well. Catch me if you can is one of our favorites."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Friday, 1-5-2007 Breakfast - cheerios in skim milk (ate way to late and likely induced fat storage :( ) Lunch - Lean Cuisine Teriyaki Chicken (yum), a few bites of fresh fruit and water Snack - none (although Im eyeballing the fresh fruit again) Dinner - Crockpotted Chicken breast, salad w/vinegrette and water **********Doctors Visit************** Cough got horrible, fever wouldn't break and I couldn't sleep. Chest pains from 5 days of coughing was to much. Doctor prescribed antibiotic, etc. wieghed 307 fully dressed and right after breakfast Blood Pressure - 144/89 :( (was 160/90 at first:dazed052: ..asked for re-do) Was perscribed pills to aid wieghtloss. (Half usual dose due to BP) Follow up on BP (Doc is concerned) in a week. **********************************"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "You are right Angel. Yesterday I likely didnt eat often enough or enough over all. Being miserably sick is not helping and I need to put getting better as the priority. Saturday, 1-6-2007 Today I woke up feeling HORRIBLE. I have 102.5 fever, my voice is gone and my throat is very swollen and sore. I cannot imagine swallowing solid food. Drinking water feels like fire! I hope these antibiotics kick in soon because I am miserable. I cant workout or eat right :( :angry: *edit for 5:30pm* Ok the pill the doctor perscribed has made my appetite drop considerably. At lunch i had to force myself to not eat more and thought "I'll have a salad in a couple hours instead" but I was still hungry. Then I took the pill. It has now been 3 hours and I am not hungry at ALL, which I know I normally would be by now. Not sure if this is a good thing or if it will keep me in starvation mode and actually stunt my weight loss, which has been fairly good so far. I will try and continue to eat atleast 5 times a day even if I amnot hungry. _________________________________ Breakfast -slept through it with high fever. Snack - slept through it with high fever. Lunch - Crockpotted chicken with 1 slice whole wheat toast, iced tea w/splenda Snack - none (diet pill=not hungry) Dinner - Medium salad w/ 5 cherry tomatoes, a handful of lowfat grated cheese + vinegrete. Ice tea w/splenda Late hunger pangs - Lean Cuisine, Salmon and broccoli Exercise - 15 minutes cardio + FW for biceps, triceps, chest and traps."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thank you Heather. As a matter of fact I do feel a bit better today. My fever has finally broke, thank the Lord! That is the beginning of the end for this horrific infectious flu I hope. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Sunday 1-7-2007 Still sick but the fever broke and I am noticeably better :) Breakfast - Cheerios in skim milk -antibiotic, multivitamin, fish oil, phen pill Snack - small fresh fruit salad Lunch - Lean Cuisine (250c), salad w/low fat cheese and vinegrete (100+120+120=340c) Snack - Not feeling so good this afternoon. Going to lay down Dinner - Felt ill again the evening. No appetite. Forced myself to eat 2 handfuls of unsalted peanuts and raisins. Exercise - *new* Got tired of being house bound due to my sickness and not being able to walk or ride my bike (to cold outside). Today I, gulp, did a [b]aerobic walk video[/b]. Felt a bit femanine but i must admit i got a better workout in 30 minutes than walking the neighborhood for 30 minutes. Lots of kicks, knee lifts and upper body movement along with balance heavy stuff. So it was far from a 'buns of steel' video, lol. And it was convenient. Most importantly tho, I finally got some cardio and a bit of a sweat. The first in days. I learned today that [b]I can go for 30 minutes straight at an increasing pace and not fall over and die! [/b] It may sound funny to some that read it, but at 317 pounds its not easy!"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "You are welcome for the comments in your journal. You have been doing great and i think you deserve them! Fish oil is just a supplement for Omega fatty acids. It has several benefitial traits. Here is a pasted link.. Fish Oil benefits Some experts believe that taking fish oil (in any form) can help regulate cholesterol in the body, because fish oil has high levels of Omega 3. The regulation occurs through effects of the EPA and DHA constituents on Peroxisome proliferator-activated receptor alpha (PPARα). Besides cholesterol regulation, benefits include anti-inflammatory properties and positive effects on body composition. However, the preferred source of Omega 3 should be from the fish's body, not the liver. The liver and liver products (such as cod liver oil ) of fish and many animals (such as seals and whales) contain Omega-3, but also the active form of Vitamin A. Also.. Dietary sources of omega-3 fatty acids include fish oil and certain plant/nut oils. Fish oil contains both docosahexaenoic acid (DHA) and eicosapentaenoic acid (EPA), while some nuts (English walnuts) and vegetable oils (canola, soybean, flaxseed/linseed, olive) contain alpha-linolenic acid (ALA). There is evidence from multiple large-scale population (epidemiologic) studies and randomized controlled trials that intake of recommended amounts of DHA and EPA in the form of dietary fish or fish oil supplements lowers triglycerides, reduces the risk of death, heart attack, dangerous abnormal heart rhythms, and strokes in people with known cardiovascular disease, slows the buildup of atherosclerotic plaques ("hardening of the arteries"), and lowers blood pressure slightly. However, high doses may have harmful effects, such as an increased risk of bleeding. Although similar benefits are proposed for alpha-linolenic acid, scientific evidence is less compelling, and beneficial effects may be less pronounced. The diet I am on, "YOU:On a diet!" also recommends them for cardiovascular and circulatory system benefits. Thanks for stopping in to my journal also :) Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Monday, 1-8-2007 Today I woke up feeling not so hot. My fever is back again and at 102. This is after being on antibiotics for 2 days. Seems as tho they are not strong enough. I will be calling my Doc again today and voicing my concerns. I am SO tired of being sick. This is my 8th or 9th day :angry: *Got prescribed a different antibiotic. I pray this one will work. [I]*I am upping my intake to try and fight this infection*[/I] Breakfast - Cheerios in skim milk (hope the milk doesnt curdle. Didnt see the fever in time) - multivitamin, fishoil, antibiotic, ibuprofen..holdin off on diet pill due to fever. Early Lunch - Lean Cuisine meal (220c), whole wheat english muffin w/ promise spread, Iced tea w/splenda Lunner - 2 enchiladas using ground turkey, all natural low cal red sauce, low fat cheese and whole wheat tortillas (not to bad actually), and iced tea w/splenda - new antibiotic Dinner - large grilled chicken breast in sweet dijon sauce, broccoli with low fat cheese, iced tea w/splenda - antibiotic Exercise - took the day off. Im laying low in hopes of kicking this fever and flu."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=ghostinfog]I really LOVE your reasons for doing this. Your an amazing father, and your son will appreciate everything you do...so will you and your body! My goal is to lose 100 pounds by next new year also! I really hope you kick the flu soon! I know how rough it is.[/QUOTE] Thanks very much for your kind words. I am trying to be an amazing father but I have fell short so far. My Son deserves better than a fat, lethargic father. He deserves an energetic and healthy daddy that sets a good example for him to live by. He deserves more than Ive given him so far to look up to, but I am changing that. He is my fuel to be the best I can be no matter how hard it is! I won't stop until I become what I think he deserves. I love him so much!"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Tuesday 1-9-2007 I feel a bit better today. It would appear the infection in my throat improved today finally. I am still coughing and fighting a fever, but I feel an improvment. I think I will give the new antibiotic one more day and if the fever isnt stable by tomarrow night Im going back to the doctor on Thursday. *edit* Its now past dinner and my temperature is normal. YAY! I hope it stays that way and Im finally getting better. I'm going stir crazy :whacky011: Breakfast - Cheerios in skim milk (250c) + 5oz glass of skim milk for my pills - antibiotic, 2 advil, fishoil, multivitamin Lunch - Spinach Pizza (2 pieces=450c), iced tea w/splenda - antibiotic, 2 tylenol Snack - 1oz 70% dark chocolate and 15oz of water (100?c). Dinner - Lean Cuisine meal (250c), salad w/4 tomatoes, low fat shredded cheese and vinegrete (340c), Iced tea w/splenda *1390 calories total* Exercise - Free weights. 3 sets of biceps, triceps, traps, upper forearms, lower forearms, back and shoulders. A bit over done today (especially for being sick) but I feel good about it. I'm eager to pack on more hungry muscle :)"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=Matt_9]1390 is sort of low for a calorie count for someone your size. That's what people are going to tell you! (they're right) but I'm a fan of shocking your body onto a lower calorie intake so I'm not going to recommend you change...but it's not the 'healthiest' thing to do. Oh, and are you counting the calories in the iced tea you drink? Depending on if it's diet iced tea or what brand it is it might have anywhere from 0 to 300 calories per serving. Some brands are really loaded with calories.[/QUOTE] I know you are right about the calories. It is too low. I am having to force myself to eat due to the fever and flu. I typically eat atleast one sizable snack per day, which would add a bit. I am still unsure as to what my target intake should be honestly. I am thinking the 1500 might not be healthy for a big guy like myself. I might try and bump it to 1800 when I finally kick this neverending sickness. I also get the idea that I am likely eating a bit more calories than I am logging due to my portions being larger than I think they are. While calorie counting is ok so far..I aint weighing my food! Heh thats too much. The tea is Lipton tea bags and tap water, which I believe have no calories. I will check to make sure tho."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Wednesday 1-10-2007 Still coughing, still fighting a fever but it is steadily getting lower and still having some phlegm (mornings are fun :angry: ) Breakfast - 3 large egg whites(54c)/1 large yolk(59c)-over easy, 1 slice whole wheat toast (100c) w/ promise spread (45c) and water. [B]258c total[/B] - antibiotic, multivitamin, fishoil, tylenol Lunch - Lean Cuisine (220c) w/5 turkey meatballs (215c), 1.5 helpings stirfryed veggies (70c) in canola oil (50c?) with low fat cheese (80c) and iced tea w/splenda [B]635c total[/B] (forcing my calorie intake up) Dinner - FOUR tacobell spicy chicken soft tacos! [b](720c)[/b] and iced tea w/ splenda...yea, Im bad. - I feel like shit and really didnt want to cook. Plus i needed to bump my calories. Not a great choice but its very rare I eat like this. [b]Days total = 1613[/b] This was forcing myself to eat more than I wanted, too. [i][SIZE="2"]How the hell did i shovel down all those 2000 calorie super-sized, greasy gut bombs for all those years again?? Un-friggin-real[/SIZE][/i]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=Matt_9]I don't know if you like it but most major grocery store chains that sell their own brands of food usually make "light oatmeal" bread and also "light whole wheat" bread that is only 40 calories per slice. You can have 2 instead of 1 and shave off 20 calories from the 100c slice.[/QUOTE] I'll keep that in mind, Matt. Thanks. Right now Im actually looking for MORE healthy calories, not less. However when I kick this illness I might need to go the other route."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thanks and you are welcome, Angel. Thanks for the advice on the humidifier Shorti. I wouldnt have thought of that but it makes sense!"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Friday 1-12-2007 Got on the scale today and [B]lost another 3 pounds, woohoo![/B] Still very sick and taking it easy. I have to be patient and remember Ill have plenty of time to exercise when i am better. Breakfast - Cheerios w/skim milk [B](300c)[/B] - multivitamin, fish oil, mass quantities of medication :sad010: Lunch - Lean Cuisine (220c), whole wheat english muffin (160c) w/promise spread (50c), water [B]430c total[/B] Snack - Trail mix (250c?) and tea Dinner - One partial, nasty chicken enchilada that thje recipe went very wrong on. (150c?) -retake. Lean Cuisine (300c) and 16oz pure grape juice (220c) [B]670c total [/B] [B]1650c total for the day[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=fallen_angel]Way to go. I know that it must make you feel good to keep seeing the numbers go down. Oh and I hope you feel better soon, It must stink to be sick for that long[/QUOTE] It has been rewarding for my dedication and will power to see the weight drop as often as it has, yes. It hasnt been easy to go from mexican food, mcdonalds and sweets (along with a 5000+ calorie daily intake) and just go cold turkey on low fat, all natural foods with 1500 calories a day. Hard or not it has been worth it tho. I am proud of my progress and so is my wife. I weighed in today at 295, which is yet another pound lost, but i am skeptical. I am waiting to see if I gain any back when I finally kick this bronchitis. I woke up today not being able to breathe and it was very scary. Like i was thinking about my kids future and missing it type scary. Bronchitis is no joke! Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: ":angry: Saturday 1-13-2007 A combination of things led to a frightening turn for the worst with my bronchitis this morning. I lost my breath badly and it took over 30 minutes to recover. It was close to 911 time. Im pretty sure I know the combo that caused it and I will NOT be doing them again. SCARY stuff Breakfast(late) - Turkey Chili (420c) and some designer salad thats loaded with fat but only (125c) [B]545c total[/B] Snack - trail mix and dried cranberries (200c) Lunner - Rotiserie chicken breast and some more designer salad (320c+250c) Dinner - Lean Cuisine (250c) Dessert - 2.5 cup Fat Free frozen Vanilla yogurt *my first minor naughty purchase* (450c) but 26g of sugar. [B]2115c total[/B] < NAUGHTY :angry:"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=fallen_angel]2115 is not a bad for a guy your size. You could still lose weight if you stuck to that count daily. Uggh, you cant seem to catch a brake with that brochittis can you??? Well I hope today is a good day for you[/QUOTE] Oh i know 2115 is still low and in the loosing zone for me. Its just that I splurged on the frozen yogurt. My wife bought it mistakenly without reading the label. Then I read it and saw that it was full of sugar and corn syrup. Then I ate it anyways!! And alot of it too! It was a small hiccup. I'll have a bit more here and there until its gone and it wont be bought again. I woke up this morning to another half pound lost and the digital meter tickled 294 even. So all is still well. I had my fun and now its back to bootcamp! As for the bronchitis, yes it has been absolutely brutal. Today I feel noticeably better tho, thank the Lord. I sure hope it keeps getting better! Thanks for bein my buddy angel :) Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Sunday 1-14-2007 Breakfast - cheerios in skim milk (250c), pure grape juice (240c) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (210c) Snack - cantalope and strawberries (?) and V8 juice (50c) Dinner - whole wheat spaghetti with natural sauce(200c?) and 4 turkey meatballs (172c), 1 whole wheat english muffin w/ promise pread and garlic powder( (200c), water [B]1300-1400c total im guessing. Not enough[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=lakelady]Wow, Jason, I go on vacation and the first thing you do is get deathly ill! That was NOT part of the plan! :dazed002: You're doing VERY well sticking to your diet. If there's a good thing about being sick, it's that it DESTROYS your appetite. I'm bedridden right now as well, bacteremia in my bloodstream, more popularly known as blood poisoning, from a coral scrape I got on vacation. (don't worry, it was our last day and I didn't feel bad 'til we were on the plane home). I'm so proud of how you've stuck with this the whole time I was gone, you're REALLY gonna DO this. Well, my five minutes of lucidity are up, talk to you later. KEEP IT UP! (and don't forget the humidifier!)[/QUOTE] Welcome back lakelady! It is nice to have you back with us. I'm real sorry to hear about the corral scrape. Ive heard about the effects and i know it isnt pleasant :( Im glad it happened late in the trip atleast, though. I didnt get the appetite suppressant from this illness except for only the 3 most brutal days. I was concentrating on getting AIR mostly! I am eating quite a bit actually. It is just very low calorie/low fat foods. I am always munching on trail mix , fruits or something. I never get the chance to be hungry honestly and thats the plan. With smart choices I am able to eat my fill and still loose weight. Now thats not to say I dont crave a cheeseburger or tacos once in awhile. That us where the willpower comes in haha. Mexican food..drool! Anyways, thanks for the words of encouragement. They mean a lot. And, yes, i really am going to do this! I will keep it up. You'll see :) Jason Angel - Im not ure if the reward system with a naughty food is a good idea for me. It makes perfect sense to have something to look forward too. However, I am a habitual person. When I get my hands on something that i REALLY like (such as anything sweet compared to this diet) I am going to get cravings for it..bad. I think it might be easier for me personally to just avoid the really bad stuff like simple sugars. I'll admit Ive been thinking about that frozen yogurt since I had it the other night :laugh: I suppose having weakness' is only human. Maybe learning to avoid the bad ones is the trick, eh?"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Monday 1-15-2007 Feeling a bit better still today. I feel I will be blessed with good health again soon! Breakfast - cheerios in skim milk (300c) Lunner - Lean Cuisine (300c), mixed salad with sweet vinegrete (200c), whole wheat english muffin w/promise spread (145c) Treat - 1 cup fat free frozen yogurt (200c) Dinner - Left over whole wheat spagetti w/2 turkey meatballs (250c) and water [B]1395c total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Tuesday 1-16-2007 Breakfast - cheerio in skim milk (300c) Lunch - turkey chili (420c), WW english muffin (120c), salad (150c) Treat - fat free frozen yogurt (250c) Lunner - Lean Cuisine (220c), iced tea w2/splenda [B]1460 total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Wednesday 1-17-2007 Breakfast -cheerios w/skim milk (300c), grape juice (300c) Lunner - turkey meatloaf (280c), broccoli w/skim cheese (150c) Snack - natural popping corn with salt only (50c) Treat - Fat Free Frozen Yogurt - (360c) Went to bed early. Not feeling good. [B]1440 total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thursday 1-18-2007 Breakfast - Cheerios w/skim milk (300c) Snack - trail mix (200c) Lunner - Submarina Sub sandwich (500c) YUM Dinner - Lean Cuisine (250c) and a fresh grapes (45c) [B]1295 total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thursday 2-8-2007 Breakfast - cheerios/skim milk (300c) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (280c), salad (250c) Dinner - Spicy Chicken brats (650c) 1480 total"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=lakelady]You're just doing great with your food choices and STICKING TO THEM! I'm very proud of you. Hope you feel better, it just SUCKS being sick![/QUOTE] Thank you lakelady. I really appreciate your support. Its amazing how far a little praise can go when I feel tempted by bad stuff or I get frustrated. Its an extra safety net that keeps me from falling. Thanks again :) Jason p.s. I think I am finally getting better. WOOHOO Thank you Lord!"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Friday 1-19-2007 Breakfast - cheerios w/skim milk (300c) All natural Strawberry-Kiwi juice - 16oz (240c) Snack - handful of peanuts (180c) and a 4oz swallow of juice (60c) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (250c), water Dinner - natural Chicken parmesian (400c?) w/salad (120c) Snack - turkey chili (460c) and whole wheat muffin w/promise spread(200c) [B]2210c total [/B]- wow is that all? I ate like an ox today!"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Saturday 1-20-2007 Breakfast - cheerios w.skim milk (300c), 16oz grape juice (300c) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (290c), iced tea w/splenda Treat - Sugar free vanilla ice cream (180c) Dinner - 4 spicy chicken soft tacos (600c?), water [B]1670 total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thank you ladies :) I can truly say the food is very tasty, too. The beauty of the choices I have been making is that I am never hungry. I actually have to typically eat MORE than I want to in order to keep my calories UP, not down! Thats the cool thing about eating healthy. You get to stuff your face and loose weight at the same time! Not to mention how great you feel and all the energy you have. Good luck to you both on your healthy travels and thank for stopping by! Jason(minus75pounds-now)"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Sunday 1-21-07 Breakfast - cheerios in skim milk (300c) Snack - pure grapew juice (240c) lunch - lean cuisine (250c) and water 790c total of far Fell asleep early.."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Monday 1-22-2007 Woke up hungry! Breakfast - 4 egg omelet with fresh salsa(200c) , 1 banana (100c) and 10oz skim milk (90c) Lunch - Cheerios in skim milk (300c) Dinner - Lean Cuisine (280c), whole wheat garlic bread (150c) and iced tea w/splenda Snack (calorie buffer) - Turkey Meatballs (176c) with hotsauce and V8 juice (50c) [B]1346 total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=lakelady]hey that's a good low fat breakfast! did you use no-calorie cooking spray tocook the omelet? I use it for ALL my frying/sauteing. You're doing great! keep it up. Are you feeling better. Seems we all got sick here at once![/QUOTE] I used 100% canola spray and just a tiny squirt. I typically use it for all my stove top cooking, be it in spray or bottled form. I think I may splurg next time and get some 100% olive oil tho :) As for my sickeness, its been really strange. The last two days I have felt like my breath has been shorter and I have been really tired. My fever has not come back, which I am thankful for. However this has been over THREE WEEKS now. I am still congested and coughing with limited lung capacity noticeable after the slightest exercise. I might have to call the doctor a fourth time if it doesnt clear up soon. Im ready to be healthy again! Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Tuesday 1-23-07 Breakfast - cheerios in skim milk (300c) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (250c) and banana (100c) Dinner - Lean Cuisine (210c), ww english muffin w/ promise spread (145c) Late night meal - turkey chili (460c), ww toast w/promise (145c), skim milk (50c) *woke up coughing..again* [B]1660 total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=lakelady]Any kind of bronchitis takes a long time to get over, I know. Three weeks isn't unusual. Try this. Go to the pharmacy and get one of those OTC syrups containing an expectorant, for chest congestion and a productive cough. (ask the pharmacist.) Take that with LOTS of water and when your chest starts to loosen up a bit, MAKE yourself cough, really deep coughs like they make you do after surgery. Expel as much air from your lungs as you can and cough, then breathe really deep and cough. It REALLY helps get that stubborn infection that's clogging up your lungs out. (which, of course is why they make you do it after surgery to prevent pneumonia, lots of fun coughing with staples up your middle!) You'll recover a lot faster. Remember lots of water all the time to keep that gunk as liquid as possible so you CAN cough it out. you're doing GREAT with your food. hope you feel better soon.[/QUOTE] Thanks for the info lakelady. I keep reminding myself over and over that this might take awhile to clear up. I have done alot of reading and I know that going over 3 weeks isnt unheard of and some cases go over 4 weeks and beyond. The last few days though, especially since last night, have been real hard. I cant breath! If i walk up our stairs I get to huffing and puffing and it spurs a cough attack. The coughing slowly takes my breath away more and more until it gets to scary levels. The respitory restriction is definately worse over the last 2 days. I havent slept more than 2 hours at a time in 3 days because i cough myself awake. I am up after 2 hours of sleep typing this right now. I feel like no combination of recommended treatments works. Each has its downfall which ultimately leads to coughing and loosing my ability to breath. I was prescribed an inhaler which i am supposed to use once every 4 hours..and I have been using that thing like an addict tonight. Its the only thing that opens my airway enough to allow me to breath and not trigger constant coughing. Unfortunately it only last about 10 minutes. I am miserable, sore and concerned about the lack of breath. I am goign to call the doctor AGAIN tomarrow and see if its normal that the breathing gets worse. All my upper resporatory and fever have been gone. All that remains is this relentless cough and the constant fear of not being abel to catch my breath next time. :( I have been taking a pill form of expectorant and drinking more than usual, although Im sure its not enough. I can only take the expectorant during the day because i cough even more on it. I have coughed so much it hurts me in my groin now. Everything above that has been sore.."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Monday 1-29-2007 Feel about the same today, which is a good thing. The meds are still working and I am tapering off of the steroids (3 today). Will get chest Xrays and see what the Doc has to say today hopefully. Breakfast - cheerios w/skim milk (300c) Brunch - 3 eggs (1 yolk) (110c), 5 turkey sausage links (320c), ww toast w/promise (145c) *I am hungry today - good sign i think* Lunch - Lean Cuisine (300c), salad w/cheese,tomatoes, rasberrie dressing (220c) Dinner - Spanish chicken soup (360c), ww muffin w/promise (145c) [B]1880 totaL[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thanks angel. I got your PM also. Fortunately I had already made an appointment by the time i read this. So I just got back from the doctor. He is now treating me for ASTHMA :sad010: I am now prescribed a whole new group of drugs and I need to get a chest Xray. I was given a medicine via facemask mister and two more shots. He didnt sound too concerned, especially compared to MY concern for my loss of breath. Kept saying I needed to calm down and things would be fine. Having 'asthma' scares me tremendously. I have never had breathing problems until now. I am just now starting to turn my life around and am looking forward to exercising, getting fit and playing with my Son. I cant help but picture myself loosing my breath rapidly whenever i exert myself and needing an inhaler..please say it isnt so. The doc says it has nothing to do with my eating habits, fitness level or weight. But having to potentially fight this as I work to a healthy me is frightening. The Doc is calling it asthma now because he is treating it as if it were asthma (steroids to unconstrict bronchial tubes). Ive read the symptoms of asthma and I have about half of them. I pray that this is just bad bronchitis and once its gone..its gone. The Doc was playing the safe roll and saying thing like "it could be.." and " You might have to.." when I was asking for specifics regarding it being asthma and having it the rest of my life. I'm scared edit: Well after being home and getting time to settle down with the new drugs flowing through my system..I must say i feel much better. I just walked upstairs and back down with little drama, which was BAD earlier today. I hope the shots he gave me arent giving the 24 hour euforia of feeling good only to revert -back to struggling to breath once they wear off. That is what happened last time. As of right now though...I feel better and am calming down a bit. The feeling of suffocating is terrifying and Im thankful to be breathing better. I pray it lasts this time."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Must..stay..devoted. This won't hold me down! Brunch - Lean Cuisine (250c), salad w/tomatoes, low fat cheese and low cal dressing (250c) Lunner - Spanish soup (360c) and a ww english muffin w/promise spread (145c) 1005 so far"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thank you for your educated perspective, lakelady. It has helped me a bit to quench my concerns with facts. I have been doing alot of reading since the diagnosis and I am more educated now also, which has helped. It would seem that even if this is true asthma that I will carry with me the rest of my life (which I Pray it isn't), I can still lead a normal, active lifestyle. I just need to work with my doctor to get it under control and take steps to keep it that way. That said thing are looking up today. The steroids I am on now have worked wonders so far on opening my bronchial tubes. I actually SLEPT last night for 7-8 hours, only waking up once! I woke up today with free'er breathing and a lot less phlegm. ALso, drum roll please, I walked right upstairs and back down with no scary complications. I still felt it, but it was under control. YAY! I think the fact that I am responding to steroids (asthma treatment) means that I am, clinically, asthmatic. I still hold onto hope that this will not be reaccuring. But, as of right now, I am just happy to have my breath back enough to be comfortable and not on edge. Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Friday 1-26-2007 I feel markedly better today after being treated for asthma. I am going to get an Xray of my chest today and I Pray they wont find anything that is serious. I feel like I am on the road to recovery finally and I hope this time its permanent! Breakfast - large cheerios in skim milk (350c) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (250c), salad (200c) Dinner - natural chicken soup (360c), salad(200c), ww muffin w/promise spread 145c) [B]1505c total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Saturday 1-27-07 Breakfast - cheerios in skim milk (300c) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (300c) loong nap for the sick boy Dinner - Lean Cuisine (250c), Salad w/ cherry tomatoes, low fat cheese and rasberry dressing (250c) treat - no sugar vanilla ice cream w/splenda (200c) [B]1300 total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Sunday 1-28-07 Woke up with a bit of a cough today but it went away. The steroids are obviously still working great (4pills today). I can breath pretty freely and stairs are no problem. Things are looking up for me. Thanks, Lord! Breakfast - cheerios w/skim milk (300c) snack - apple sauce w/ no sugar added (100c - 2 small cups) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (280c) Dinner - Turkey chili w/ low fat cheese (540c), ww muffin w/ promise (145c) 1356"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Had a bit more of a cough this morning when I woke up. It is pretty cold in the house so i will write it off to me breathing in cold air all night (crosses fingers). ALmost done with meds and I feel fairly good. I hope this is the end, FINALLY, of the sickness :) tUESDAY 1-30-2007 Breakfast - cheerios and skim milk (300c) 6:40am snack - apple sauce w/ no sugar added (100c - 2 small cups) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (250c), salad /w LF cheese, tomatoes, vinegrete (200c), ww muffin w/promise spread (145c) Dinner - Lean Cuisine (300c), 8oz V8 juice (50c), crystal light 1345 so far.."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[B]RULES THAT NEED ENFORCING No eating a minimum of 3 hours before bedtime! Restrict portion size even more and eat more snacks! Free weights every other day (& cardio when doctor clears me)! Walk every day atleast 30 minutes (awaiting doctors OK)! Vegetables need bulking, salad wont cut it! Drink V8 every day! Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start enjoying your new life![/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=Matt_9]Try the Low Sodium V8 vegetable juice. The regular one is ridiculously high in sodium, like...really insane.[/QUOTE] You know I noticed that also. Sodium is the next thing I am going to taper down on. I havent bothered watching it yet because I have such strict numbers on sugar, sat fat, trans fat and unnatural ingredients that I have a hard enough time finding food I can buy. Thanks for the warning though. I know its bad"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Well I got physical for the first time today in over 3 weeks. I've had a bit more of a cough the last two days but I decided to try my luck since I have alot that is WAY behind. SUCCESS! I did some serious cleaning and moving for about 4 hours straight and I didnt loose my breath once! It would appear that Big J is back! Here comes the free weights and cardio! Wednesday 1-31-2007 Breakfast - cheerios w/skim milk (300c) early lunch - Lean cuisine (260c), small salad w/tomatoes, LF cheese and rasberry dressing (200c) Early dinner -Spanish chicken soup (360c), ww muffin w/promise (145c) BBQ time! - Spicy chicken brats served in WW pita pockets with LF cheese, roasted salsa and a smear of real mayonnaise...YUM! (580c) [B]1834 total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Heh thanks Matt. Man Im not sure you can loose the rest of your goal weight after seeing your recent pics. You already look pretty damn good. I have a feeling once you start packing on the muscle at the gym you will continue to change shape but might not want to go as light as you thought. We will see! As for me, the Good Lord blessed me with finally being able to breath again! I tested it today and probably took it too far, but I didnt loose my breath and I feel almost 100% with hardly any phlegm or cough. I can't wait to finish typing this and eating my dinner so I can go do more! I am stir crazy from being sick so long. But [B]NOW, muahaha, [/B] that I can get back to being active again, oh it's on! :th_dblthumb2:"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thursday 2-1-2007 Woke up today determined to make the most of my regotten health. Still coughing a bit but i feel pretty good. Woke up, had breakfast and immediately went into free weights AND 30 minutes of mild cardio. I did not loose my breath...i didnt even break a sweat! Thank you Lord! I can breath again. Breakfast - cheerios w/skim milk (300c) *cardio* - 30 minutes *free weights* - biceps, triceps, forearms Lunch - missed it..too busy having my life back Dinner - Lean Cuisine (220c), salad (250c), ww muffin with promise (145c) 915 so far"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=smarchee]keep up the good work Jason, you are making tremendous progress :th_dblthumb2:[/QUOTE] Thank very much smarchee. I intend on keeping it up for the rest of my life :)"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Arg today i woke up coughing up the dark stuff again. I am going to stay out of the cold today for sure. Do NOT want a relapse. PLEASE no! On a better note, since I have been active the last few days I have dropped some weight finally form the platoeu that I was stuck on. [B]282 this morning [/B]and it appears stable. WOOT Breakfast - cheerios w/skimmilk (300c) *been real busy and active today* Lunch - Lean Cuisine (260c), Salad w/ LF cheese, tomatoes and vinegrete (200c) Dinner - Lean Cuisine (300c), WW muffin w/promise (180c), V8 juice - 2 servings (100c) treat - dark chocolate (150c?) 1490 so far.."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Saturday 2-3-2007 I am getting the same 'bronchitis phlegm' back now. A slight cough but no fever, sore throat or other symptoms. I am hoping over-the-counter Tylonal severe cold will handle this. Please don't let me get ill again, especially not the bronchitis/asthma. Brealfast - cheerios in skim milk (300c) Late lunch - lean cuisine (300c), salad (200c) Dinner - 3 eggs (75c), 4 turkey sausage links (280c), WW toast w/ promise (165c) [B]1320 so far[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Sunday 2-4-2007 Well i feel better yet still today. The OTC flu pills seem to be helping. The main thing though is that I have been able to be very active the last 4 days which has made me feel great! Im loving the new me so far and anxiously look forward to what the future brings! [B]RAWR![/B] Breakfast - cheerios in skim milk (300c) *vitamin, fish oil, vit C and meds* Lunch - Lean Cuisine (280c), salad (250c), WW muffin w/promise spread (170c) Dinner - Turkey patty double hamburger w/ WW bread, LF cheese, mayo/mustard, lettuce..GOOD! (730c!) and 3 pickle spears (15c) [B]1745c total[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Monday 2-5-2007 breakfast - cheerios w/skim milk (300c) lunch - lean cuisine (250c) and salad (250c) dinner - double turkey burger (780c) and 5 pickly spears (25c) [B]1605[/B]"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "I will likely end up saving soem sort of copy of this journal and a record of my weight loss over time with a few pictures. Its always nice to have records or some sort of your accomplishments in life, afterall. I suppose there is a good chance my Son might see it some day. :) Tuesday 2-6-2007 breakfast - cheerios/skim milk (300c) lunch - lean cuisine (220c), salad (250c) dinner - lean cuisine (250c), WW muffin w/promise (205c), V8 juice double shot (100c) 1335 so far"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Wednesday 2-7-2007 Breakfast - cheerios w/kim milk (300c) Lunch - spinach pizza (300c), salad (250c), Large skim milk (270c) Dinner - 4eggs/3 yolks (90c), 5 turkey sausage links (350c), WW muffin with promise spread (200c), skim milk (180c)...im such a pig! haha. So good though. 1940c total"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Lakelady - thanks once again for the words of encouragement. :D I have started doing free weights daily now and am getting more and more active. THings are going real well! The chicken brats are simply low fat white chicken meat brats with red and green peppers in them and some spices. They are great for only 160c each I must say. Friday 2-9-2007 Breakfast - Cheerios w/skim milk (300c) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (280c), salad (200c) Lunner - Lean Cuisine (300c), ww muffin (160c) Dinner - Double Turkey burger (700c) 1940c total"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=lakelady]Gee, THANKS Jason, but where do you GET them? :rolleyes:[/QUOTE] Oh, in California! :lol: Does that help? okok... I think we found them at Albertsons. They are called Catella's Roasted Chicken Sausage "with sweet bell peppers and onions". I wouldnt describe them as a 10, but they are pretty decent for 160cals each"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "2-10-07 breakfast - 300c lunch - 250+130+160+45=585 Dinner - subway chicken breast+veggie sub = 550c 1435 total"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "2-11-07 It would appear that I am gaining more muscle weight than I can loose fat weight. Either that or it may be time to 'shock' my system with a junkfood day for the first time. I have been at 280 for 3 days now, which is a jump of 3 pounds. I have been lifting weights for about a week and have been doing some heavy work the last several days. I think I may actually packing on some muscle mass. We will see soon enough I suppose Breakfast - cheerios/skim milk - 300c Lunch - Lean Cuisine (250c) and a salad (250c) Dinner - turkey chili (460c), WW muffin w/promise spread (200c), V8 double shot (100c) 1560 total"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Yes I am hoping it is muscle gain. I didnt eat any junkfood yet though. Havent touched anything but diet food in over 2 months. I was saying that IF I am stuck on a plateau...I might have to go eat crap to 'shock' me out of the plateau phase. Ive been loosing no less than 4 pounds a week for awhile now. I just cant believe I have gained 3 pounds MORE muscle than the fat ive lost in the last week. 7 pounds of muscle in a week does not sound possible."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thanks for the support folks. I did NOT get into any junk food. I have just been very busy with building a project car, working on the house and..dealing with my crappy home life. My diet has not strayed at all. I have not worked out the last 2 days due to severe leg pain from doing both squats and lunges on saturday. My first targeted quad session and i just took it TOO far. I have stayed really active otherwise though. I am going to wait this plateau out and see what happens. Im not in a rush. Oh and klynn..i will not give up I assure you! Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "tuesday 2-13-07 Breakfast - cheerios/skim milk (300c) Lunch - Lean cuisine (250c)+lemon dill sauce (200c), medium salad (250c) DInner - Thin crust veggie and chicken pizza 1000"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=lakelady]please tell me you make your cars pretty and not turn them into rockets![/QUOTE] Well I cant say that I am afraid. I am afterall a speed junky. I dont recall ever intentionally scaring my Mother though, if that makes my love of land rockets any easier for you to swallow? If it doesnt take you breath away (literally) when launching from a stop, its not fast :D"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Wednesday 2-14-07 Breakfast - cheerios/skim milk (300c) Lunch - Lean Cuisine (300c), salad (250c) snack - 2 small pizza square (300c?) Dinner - marinated chicken breast (200c), Large salad (250c) 1600c"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thursday 2-15-07 B - cheerios/skim milk -300c L - lean Cuisine -280c D - Chicken breast -100c, huge salad -300c, broccoli w/LF cheese -100c S - Jumbajuice LF large smoothie -370, Large salad w/ minimal LF dressing -200c 1650c total Also hit the weights hard today. Did Chest (upper/center), traps/shoulders, biceps, triceps, calves, quads. Also I have been doing some very labor intensive work lately. Most definately the most active I have been in many years. If I keep this up I might have something nice to look at under this blubber when I finally loose enough to show some definition. :clap:"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thank you very much ladies. I appreciate your kind words very much. I certainly hope I can drop alot more weight by summer. I am still quite fat although I definately feel like a new man already. I didnt realise how fat i still looked until I saw pics from my Sons 2nd birthday party a couple days ago. I guess I feel so much better physically that my self image was a bit ahead of itself. I feel alot more fit than the fat guy in those pictures. No biggie though. Its just a matter of time until my outside appearance catches up with my new inner man. As far as posting pics of myself, I didnt have any intention of waiting til I hit my goal. I dont know if i even have any pics of me over 300 pounds. Wasnt exactly jumping in front of cameras, heh. I'll have a look through my pics and see if I can find any that will show close to my starting weight to compare to now. I honestly dont think the change is very obvious yet though so I wouldnt expect much. Afterall I still weigh 273 pounds! I'll see what i can come up with. Last but not least, thank you Lakelady for your kind words regarding my discipline. I admit I am proud of myself for sticking to it as I have. I am also loving the results of my hardwork so far. I will tell you this though. If at some point pigs fly and hell freezes over..and i end up in a speedo..you won't be seeing pics of that! No banana hammocks for this guy.. Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Friday 2-16-07 B - cheerios in skim milk -300c S - red seedless grapes -60c L - Lean Cuisine -280c, salad -250c, 2cups skim milk -180c, natural applesauce -100c D - double turkey cheeseburger -700c, 2 pickle spears -30c 1900 total"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Saturday 2-17-07 B - 3 eggs (75c), 5 turkey sausage links(250c), WW muffin w/promise spread (200c), 1.5 cups skim milk (135c) *[B]660c breakfast :dazed052:[/B] * L - skipped (bad) D - marinated chicken breast (100c), salad (200c), broccoli (75c) D2 - Lean Cuisine (300c) and Spanish soup (160c) 1495 total"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "sunday 2-18-07 B - cheerios/skim milk -300c L - lean cuisine -350c, spanish soup -360c d - 4 eggs -100c, 4 turky sausage links -280c , WW muffin w/promise -200c S - LF cottage cheese and pinapple (-50c?) 1640c"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "monday 2-19-07 B - cheerios / skim milk -300c L - lean cuisine w/thai sauce - 350c, salad -250c D - Lean cuisine -270c, WW muffin/promise -200c 1370.."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "2-20-07 b - Cheerios/skim milk -300c L - 4 spicy chicken soft tacos -720c D - marinated chicklen breast over WW rice - ?"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "2-21-07 Wednesday B - cheerios in skim milk -300c L - lean cuisine -220c, WW muffin w/promise -200c, applesauce -140c D -chicken breast sub on WW roll -650c, applesauce -140c S -SF applesauce -100c 1750.."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "2-22-07 Thursday B cheerios/skim milk -300c L Double turkey burger w/ 3 pickle spears -700c?"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=Robyn]Oh my gosh! Jason, I haven't checked in on your journal for a few days and you are just MELTING away! WAY TO GO! :th_dblthumb2:[/QUOTE] Heh thanks Robyn. Im still chuggin along over here. Thanks for the kind words :) In further new today...I hit the [SIZE="6"][B]260s[/B][/SIZE] today! It very well might be gone tomarrow and not show back up for a few days..but today i saw 269!!...i saw it with my own two eyes so it counts. okok..ill wait to change the ticker til its obviously permanent :D SO i have to do the math here..it keeps me going, afterall. 269 would make 48 pounds lost in just under 2 months and 3 weeks. *flex!!* :th_dblthumb2: "What do you want more? This fattening treat which will satisfiy you for 5 minutes...or this fit, healthy body which will satisfy you for life?" I'll take LIFE with a sideorders of self esteem and pride..and yes I am willing to work for it! Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thanks gang! Man I hope i can hit my goal of 215 during this summer..i would be SO happy. I have had more than enough of this fat, unhealthy body for a lifetime. Again, I wont stop til I hit my goal...you'll see! Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "[QUOTE=lakelady]You've given us no reason to believe anything else, Jason! You're an inspiration. Talk about 'sticking with it', you've got it down! My teen says you 'pownzor' whatever THAT means, but I think it's good.[/QUOTE] LMAO That would be net slang for 'kicking much ass!' :D Well I have slacked off on logging my calorie counting since I really have a set routine now. I will be trying for a bit without logging all meals. I'll continute to give updates regularly though. Today I was 268..time to change the ticker one more time! Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Quick update. Things are still going great. I have obviously stopped logging calories. Ive been doing it plenty long enough now to stay within my boundries with no log. If anything I eat a bit too few calories per day due to the low calories in the healthy foods that I am eating. Anyways I am still extremely active and the weight is falling off of me. If these last 7 days are any indication of what I will loose this month..it will be another good report in 3 weeks or so. I seem to be heading for the 250s rapidly :th_dblthumb2: I am still on track and focused. I havent forgot to get some recent pics to share. Next time I take my boy to the park or something Ill have the wife take some shots :) Viva la New Life!! Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Quick update I am about 261 right now so the 250s are getting very close. I must admit I am really starting to see the changes in myself now that I just didnt see much of down to the 270s. Was sitting at a meeting in some shorts the other day and looked down at someone elses leg! Had to be someone elses because mine is twice that size!..jeez I guess I am looking alot thinner, I said. I am still being a good boy and sticking to the diet. I have been so busy I am not eating as frequently as I should though. It hasnt seemed to slow down my loss yet but I need to eat more often none the less. Still havent got any pictures but I might take the kid to the park tomarrow. If so Ill try and get a pic or two. I feel fantastic and am getting better all the time! JasonMinus46pounds (and counting..)"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thanks everyone! I hit the 250's today so WOOT!!! 259 and I am fairly sure it isnt fluctuation since I was low 60s for a bit. [I]I'd like to dedicate this particular milestone to my Mother. The Lord took Her from me at the young age of 59 and today would have been Her 62nd birthday. I miss Her SO much. Happy Birthday Mom! This ones for you.[/I] As for what am I going to reward myself with when I reach my goal..I had never thought of it honestly. I'll tell you all though that I got my first reward yesterday and it was worth it. I took my son Jonathan to the park and was able to play with him like never before. In a park full of mommies watching me I went INTO all the kids play areas with Jonathan. I climbed into the towers, helped him across the suspension bridge, swang with him on the kids swings and...went down all the slides with him. He ran around excitedly constantly saying "cmon daddy! cmon!!" as I let him lead me for about 45 minutes. The women looked on and laughed, as did my wife. I didnt care if they were laughing at me or with me. THIS is why I am doing this. Its why I am working so hard. I would have never got off the bench 3 months ago. I definately wouldnt have tryed to climb anything with Jonathan at almost 320 pounds. And i definately would not have fit down any of those slides or up through the holes at the tops of the rope ladders. That is the reward I truly wanted and it is worth the work Jason p.s. I wife snapped some pics of us playing in the park yesterday. I should be able to introduce myself soon."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "It has been a long time since I have updated this so here it goes. I hit a plateau around mid-month in March. I was steaming along, loosing weight steadily, then as soon as I hit 259 things stopped. My diet hadnt changed although the stress is my life was at a new high. I remained super active also but I was stuck at 259-262Lbs. Fast forward a month and 10 days later to today. I have broken my diet numerous times over the last 2 weeks but nothing really bad. I would eat a couple spoon fulls of peanutbutter, I had a gallon of lowfat milk instead of skim, I had several 160 cal packs of Nilla wafers and Animal crackers and I was generally not eating often enough or healthy enough. I have been back on the diet truly for about 3 days now. Today I broke the plateau I believe. I stepped on the scale and was rewarded with a 249. Been a LONG time since this big fella has seen the 240s so I had to cheer a bit :D I have also dropped another pants size and am into my old wardrobe again. It does not sound possible but, according to my tape measure I have lost a total of more than 9" off my waist in under 5 months. Can that be right?? That doesnt sound do-able to me but my math looks right. Best comparison I have is my pants I suppose. The pants I wore at the beginning were getting tight enough to hurt while wearing them. I was definately a couple pounds from not fitting into them at all. Right now, if I wear the same pants..its comedy. I have to wear a belt just to keep them up and the belt has to be tightened to the point where the waist of the jeans folds over itself. The jeans hang off of me like a rapper. Both the crotch and the heels of the jeans hang easily 6" lower than before. I drag the pants legs on the ground and under my shoe soles unless I pull the waist up to my navel. In any case, it is obvious that I lost several inches. I just cannot believe its close to 10"...atleast not yet :D So I hope I am back on track to loose more weight. It took me almost 6 weeks to loose 10 pounds this last time. I hope I can increase my loss again to be closer to what it was before the plateau. However with the stress of a possible pending divorce and the thought of a broken family for my Son have definately added to the difficulty of staying focused. No matter how bad things get for me though, one thing is for sure. It may slow me down on the wqay to my goal..but it will NOT stop me. Jonathan will have his healthy Daddy and I will have the rest of my life to be there for my Son. Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Quick update I have been slowly dropping more weight recently. I now seem to be at a steady 245, which feels great! Its been a while since I payed much attention to the total loss. I have been preoccupied with life and the weight just has not been a priority. After realizing this today I thought it was time to add it up and see where I am at. [SIZE="3"][COLOR="Red"]72Lbs lost..[/COLOR].[/SIZE]in [B]4 months and 3 weeks[/B]. :th_dblthumb2: I am [U]shocked[/U] considering I have been breaking the diet quite a bit for 3 weeks now(stress) and I havent truly worked out in months, although i am very active. Granted the diet breaks have not been major though. I am into yet another lower pants size now and into a whole new wardrobe that hasnt fit for many years. Trying on clothes is an experience. For instance I have shorts that have a built-in belt that I wore up to my heaviest. I couldnt get the belt buckle within 3-4" of clasping back then and I stretched the elastic. They were quite tight. Now though, I need that belt! :D Not only does it clasp but it needs to be tightened 3-4" to keep the shorts from falling down! This was a pride-filled reminder of just how many inches I have lost. So while my life is up in the air right now and I struggle to make the right decisions for my Son, it's nice to report that I am still on track to achieve my goal. As usual, this is for you Jonathan! Come hell or high water you will get the daddy you deserve. Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "The last few days have been pretty bad for me, diet wise (and otherwise). My minor diet breaks are slowly turning into bad eating habits again. I have found several bad snacks over the last few weeks that have been getting way too frequent. Particularly the last few days. I am starting to find myself searching for sweets regularly now and just not wanting the good food. I think after 5 months of eating nothing but lean cuisines, cheerios and greens I have lost patience. I am sick of the food and am looking for healthy alternatives. In the meantime though I NEED to slow down on the peanutbutter, honey, 100cal packs and just general eating of foods that are not good fuel. I am, as always, determined to see this thing through. It is getting very hard to stay focused and maintain discipline. My marriage problems are forever reaching a new high and I am recently living alone with split custody. Its been about a month now and it is very hard on me. Not seeing Jonathan for days at a time hurts my heart and I am just not cut out to live alone it seems. I have been forced into a very painful position and I am not adapting so well thusfar. It's pretty hard to stick to the strict regiment I made for myself with the issues I am dealing with right now. Not seeing my reason for change everyday makes focus easy to break. I have hung lots of new pictures of Jonathan around the house to help offset missing him so much but its not working. I never imagined that I would have any problems with living alone..I actually thought it would be a dream come true. No emotionally unstable wife and no misbehaving, obnoxious 2yo terror running around? Sign me up! Little did I know that it would add to the feeling of being alone alot more than it would relax me with peace and quiet. Anyways the point of the update is that I am still here and I am still determined to reach my goal. I havent been doing very well lately with the diet so I am reporting it here. I am trying to give my Son the best life I can but his mother sabotaging all of our futures together is stopping me from being able to. If she isnt happy..then NOone will be happy and she will see too it. The problem is that she doesnt even know what makes her happy! How am I supposed to team up with that to make a better life for my Son? Things have got to get better eventually. The Good Lord never gives us more than we can handle..it just looks that way sometimes. Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Jeez, time is flying. I didnt realize it has been so long since my last log. I thought time flew when I was having fun..there goes that theory! I regretfully have to report that I fell off the wagon. The horror of my marriage and my fear for my Sons future have taken thier toll I am afraid. I havent been on my bootcamp diet for well over a month now. At one point I got on the scale and saw I had gained over 10 pounds back in a bit over 2 weeks..that was enough. I have been slowly pushing myself back into a regiment and have started (half-assedly) free weight training. I am now eating many more foods that I consider bad but my calorie, fat and sugars intake is back under control. I just cannot take anymore cheerios and SPA style lean cuisines...i cannot! The 5+ months was more than enough for a lifetime, I think. So rather than going on and on with my usual longwinded spiel, I am going to keep it short. I live a very, VERY blessed life and i am SO thankful for all the Good Lord has given me. I do not feel I am nearly worthy but I sure am appreiciative! However my wife has done her best to make hell on earth for me and she has done pretty well. But now it is a real threat to my Sons future and upbringing...and I will burn in her personal hell no more! I will find a way to make my Sons life what he deserves it too be...and my life also. I deserve better and I am slowly remembering that. Jason (formerly known as 'legend')"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thank you lakelady. You are always so sweet and supportive. You and this site certainly have a good part in my success and I thank you. All of you. I dont think the visitation is going to be a problem. She knows I am a good father and says she is so fortunate to have me for Jonathans dad. I dont know about all that but I appreciate her comments. I have a possible silver lining to my falling off the wagon to report. Less than a week ago I weighed 254.5 two days in a row. Today I stepped on the scale, reluctantly, and I weigh 244. I dont know if this was just perfect timing on my part for the weigh-in and its false or if it is actual. What I do know is that I smiled when I saw it and that felt good. I dont feel like I fell off the wagon now as much as I feel like I took a deserved break from a hard regiment. I think I'm ready step in the ring once again and show what I'm made of. Jason (fnal) :) For my Boy!...for my Boy!...for my Boy...for my Boy!...FOR MY BOY!..."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "also.. I just read through the last two pages of this thread and I realized that I never responded to Naynay, Help or Angel. Also passed over lakeladies funny joke. I just wanted to say I am sorry. I have been in a bad place, mood wise, but it is no excuse for my rudeness. I appreiciate all of your support more than I can express. Sometimes it feels like all I have in my corner. Thank you to each of you. You are your brothers keeper."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "....also also.. After readin the last couple pages I got caught up so I just read through my entire journal for the first time since I started this and It was eye opening. I realized several things but the one standing out, to me atleast, is how badly my seperation has effected me. I read through and it was great memorys. I felt proud and it filled my heart with drive..until I started mentioning I am having issues at home. Then I go from happy, frequent reports of progress and enjoying our (featherish) community..to loss of focus and some sad posts..to miserable and all but vanished from the site. I almost completely fell off the radar right after we seperated to the day. I honestly didnt realize how much of a ghost I had become around here, nor for [I]how long[/I]. I felt like I was getting the cold shoulder recently as hardly anyone responds to this thread that used to. Now I realize no one abandoned me..I abandoned you folks. :( I dont think I quite understand the depth to which my current situation (separation from my wife/split custody of my Son) has effected me. I now understand the phrase "it seemed like time stood still" but I thought it was usually associated with good things. Not for me it would seem. I have lost track of time since they left and have kept myself busy to the point isolation. I think I need to remind myself that I am not the 'rock' I'd always like to be in times of crisis. This is my family and I dont have anything else so its tearing me up pretty bad. I hope I have some will power left in the reserves to help me break out of this funk, while pushing through my last weight loss. I'm going to start by checking in here regularly again..no matter how bad my day/week has been. I just hope I dont insult anyone as I have been in pretty bad shape lately. I'm back"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thank you ladies. I appreciate your support and the open arms. Lakelady - You have my permission to quote me and use my posts as a reference material for proving your undeniable sweetness :) I didnt know about the first two years of the first child being prime time for divorce. Thats interesting and I will store it away. Again, I dont 'think' that custody or either of us moving anytime soon is an issue. I know to never say never, particularly in divorce, but I just dont feel she would try and take me from Jonathan. Luckily she understands the importance of the fathers role and she knows how much I love him. I think keeping a journal, or atleast a record of events is a good idea. Writing like this doesnt come naturally so it will take some time to get into the swing though. I was surprised at just how much perspective I gained about my life and how I have lived by readin my journal here. Therefore I know it is a valueable tool. Well I am glad to be back. I think I need you folks to help me stay focused on whats important and not to get caught up to the point where I am overwhelmed by whats happening to my family. Like NOW :) I am goign to start journaling my calorie intake again until I get back into the habit of visiting here daily. That should teach me! B - corn flakes in 1% - 400c"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "So I am pretty much back on my diet 100% now and have been back to being more active. I have already dropped my 10 pound gain from my break-month and am now 2 pounds under when I started the break....so WOOT! I no longer care how bad things seem to be going for me. It is not going to stop me. It may have slowed me down for a bit but I am back and I have more fire in my eyes than ever! Step aside stress, depression and the feeling of being overwhelmed...or get ran over as I power through to my goal. Because damnit I am not going to give up on this nor am I going to give up on fighting for whats best for my Son. So step aside or get stepped on cause the heathyDaddy express is gathering more steam than ever! Jason minus TWENTY TWO POUNDS...and counting!"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "You two are both too kind I tell ya. This legend nickname still makes me laugh :laugh: If you only knew how much that feels like an oxymoron right now.. Thank you to those who have continued to support me through this. I won't forget you! Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "I'm still hanging in here ladies, thanks for checking in on me. I am back on track and loosing again, however its coming off much slower now as you can imagine. Last i saw I was at 239. I will update my ticker after this. [QUOTE=angel_rising]:signs053: [FONT=Comic Sans MS][COLOR=royalblue] [FONT=Comic Sans MS][COLOR=#4169e1]I am glad that you are not letting the B*** SH** of your wifes drama stop you from moving forward.[/COLOR][/FONT][/QUOTE] Thanks angel. I am not sure how much longer I will be able to stop the drama from effecting things. [b]Guess where I spent the night before last? In county JAIL[/b]..my first time being arrested, in jail or even in trouble with the law at all! My loving wife came over, with Jonathan, and proceeded to start a yelling match with me in front of the entire neighborhood. She refused to leave and just kept getting louder..and in front of our Son. So finally I try excorting her the last 5 feet to her car, saying she needs to go and we are making a scene. Well I guess i grabbed her upper arm a bit harder than she would have liked. The next day she reported me for domestic violence and I had to turn myself in to the police. They booked me into county jail downtown with people that I never thought I would be associated with or locked in a room to defend myself against. Well that was after the strip search and other dehumanizing procedures anyways. One inmate was in for 3 counts of attempted murder with several others also being serious felonies. It was truly one of the worst experiences of my life and my stress level is now at a level I didnt realize possible. After I got released (at 3am with nothing but my ID and the clothes on my back) she was there immediately to tell me she "didnt mean too have me arrested" and she was "sorry" and knew "I didnt deserve that". thanks alot my loving wife..I feel so much better now. I bet what will help even more is letting me go home and wash off the urine and feces I was forced to sit and lay in for hour after hour due to disgustingly unsanitary conditions and massive overcrowding of the cells. So once I finally got to see the allegid bruises..they were on both arms, which i only touched one and she admitted that (but she showed them to the cops anyways). I cannot imagien I even bruised her as I simply tried to guide her to the car, but i sure as hell didnt magically put bruises on an arm I didnt even touch! nice guys finish last..I have proved this to be true. Im starting to wish I could just be a selfish bastard that didnt care about saving my family. It would be so much easier that way. Not going to happen though..my Mother raised me better than that. I suppose the only chance I have is to force distance between her and I. Wait thats why we are seperated and have been for over 2 months..back to the drawing board. I fear the next thing she is apologizing for will be my death.. Inmate Jason edit: I was (and am) angry while posting this and I forgot one thing. [b]I know I was wrong and I should have never touched her[/b]. Regardless of the reason. I should have walked away and locked myself behind a door and waited for her to yell herself out and leave. But I didnt and as soon as I touched her I knew I was wrong. I apologized to her right after it happened numerous times and said I never meant to hurt you. Even in her state of rage she said she knew that. After she left I still felt so bad that i drove to her parents house, knowing her father would probably be there and knock my teeth out, to apologize again properly in the right tone. I was wrong and I admitted it. I suppose that wasnt enough and jail would teach me not to touch her again. Well it did I assured her. I will likely never touch her again for any reason. I cant go back to that place..nice folks dont do well there."

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "She said her own father wont even talk to her (and she is living there). He is disgusted with her over this. I have no idea about her mother, although I imagine she is being compassionate (about both of our situtations). I am fairly close to both of her parents and neither of them have even called to see if i am ok. I have too assume that is because they feel awkward about what happened to me by their daughter, which i can only imagine. I cannot blame them. So here I sit on my second ever fathers day. Alone. Confused. Angry. Hurt. I'd even trade this for my first ever fathers day, which was spent with her yelling at me over absolutely nothing that mattered at all. uncontrolled rage being vented selfishly on a day that should have been my own. Sigh..things will get better. One way or another. I will eventually get the life Ive worked so hard for, right? HA maturity can be cruel sometimes, as now when logical thinking comes into play. No, I may not get what i worked for and life can be very cruel. I need to find comfort in the fact that my Son is taken care of regardless of what she has done to me. My hard work will support him through his childhood and always be there when he needs it. I never felt worried about money or food as a child..and I can give that to my Son aswell. Regardless of how much credit she runs up or how much money she pours into that big hole in her life she is trying to fill, my Boy will be taken care of. Atleast I have one thing left to feel prideful about and I need to remember that. I am a good father! Thanks to you Nay and Lakelady. Thats for taking the time to say something nice. You may be surprised how much I rely on little bits of love these days to make it through. Jason"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "I now have to assume that my loving wife has found this forum and reading this based on the fact that I just got a call from her mother after posting I hadnt heard from them...so I want to say HI to my wife and most likely her mother who I assume are reading this. Welcome to my journal and my support group. It is just me being open and honest as [U]I always have been[/U] Oh yea..happy fathers day"

JasonMinus100Pounds said: "Thanks again for the kind support...and sound advice. I am not going to comment on the situation right now other than to thank you all for being my 'rock' when I am learning that I cannot be this time. This is very sensitive to me obviously and today has been worse than most so I am going to move onto another topic. I am fairly certain that atleast some of this weight loss is due to me being dehydrated and not taking care of myself as I should, but I want to post it anyways because it made me smile (and i really need that right now). I am now at 235 pounds...and only 15 pounds from my goal. I have lost 82 pounds? I just cant believe it. I actually feel heavier now because I have been so wrapped up in lifes tests that I have not been nearly as active. I guess my muscles feel soft and saggy and my belly feels..bigger. All I know is I am still on track and [U]I am going to do this[/U], regardless of how hard things are for me. I feel proud because this was something that I would never do for myself but I somehow found the strength in God and in my Sons face...I'm going to make it. When things get better for me and my family, and they WILL...I'm going to be ready. Damnit I'm going to live up to the nickname you all gave me and finish strong. I love you Jonathan..daddy is doing it! JasonMinus[I]15pounds[/I]??...."

ghostinfog said: "I really LOVE your reasons for doing this. Your an amazing father, and your son will appreciate everything you do...so will you and your body! My goal is to lose 100 pounds by next new year also! I really hope you kick the flu soon! I know how rough it is."

cowgirl said: "hey there.......I am 35 also.......the 80's rocked!!!!!:roll: anyways thanks for stoppin by my diary.........I am new here but not new to dieting and ect........I think that you are pretty neat to want to be a better role model for your son....I feel that way too, I have two sons and they are tha best......they need a healty ma to run around with them....so i know where you are commin from! keep up the great attitude and hard work......later Cowgirl:wave:"

magickalfairy111 said: "Great Job Jason!!!!!"

*~~YK~~* said: "[QUOTE=JasonMinus100Pounds]She said her own father wont even talk to her (and she is living there). He is disgusted with her over this. I have no idea about her mother, although I imagine she is being compassionate (about both of our situtations). I am fairly close to both of her parents and neither of them have even called to see if i am ok. I have too assume that is because they feel awkward about what happened to me by their daughter, which i can only imagine. I cannot blame them. So here I sit on my second ever fathers day. Alone. Confused. Angry. Hurt. I'd even trade this for my first ever fathers day, which was spent with her yelling at me over absolutely nothing that mattered at all. uncontrolled rage being vented selfishly on a day that should have been my own. Sigh..things will get better. One way or another. I will eventually get the life Ive worked so hard for, right? HA maturity can be cruel sometimes, as now when logical thinking comes into play. No, I may not get what i worked for and life can be very cruel. I need to find comfort in the fact that my Son is taken care of regardless of what she has done to me. My hard work will support him through his childhood and always be there when he needs it. I never felt worried about money or food as a child..and I can give that to my Son aswell. Regardless of how much credit she runs up or how much money she pours into that big hole in her life she is trying to fill, my Boy will be taken care of. Atleast I have one thing left to feel prideful about and I need to remember that. I am a good father! Thanks to you Nay and Lakelady. Thats for taking the time to say something nice. You may be surprised how much I rely on little bits of love these days to make it through. Jason[/QUOTE] OMG!! *makes a sad face* I don't really know what to say... :( People can be so hurtful!! It's so awesome that you're such a dedicated father though!! :D"

echoecho said: "hello there well done you are doing great.!!!! em x-x-x"